You can continue to entertain people, keep that “I don’t give much of a shit” demeanor, and avoid a solution.
I won’t beg for anything, call you out of your name to anyone, not even myself.
Give my friends a reason to lurk, a new topic to bring up, or another option when it comes to “clowning” me.
Please, make me look like a complete idiot, like I had absolutely no reason for my thoughts/actions. As if I’m delusional and need to shut my mouth.
It’s fine, only because I’ve stayed true to myself, and I refuse to stop you from doing what you really want to do.
If forgetting about me and what I’ve done is what you want, go for it. I wouldn’t want to keep you from that.
I know I’m not the asshole I’ve always strived to be in certain situations.
I help people out no matter how much they’ve angered me or annoyed me.
I’ve been put in situations to where I wasn’t even sure on how to help but I busted my ass to find a way.
I didn’t always know what people wanted out of me or from me but I have always tried my best to figure that out.
Despite the fact that majority of the time I am often left in the dark until I tell them what I would like.
People always let me know that they love or miss me, but I have always known when they were just telling me that to keep me satisfied due to the fact that I always engage in conversation first.
I reach out to people majority of the time with hopes that they will do the same to me, and not just when I make it clear that I’m angry.
It’s almost like I’m too good to people, and it’s somewhat embarrassing for them to interact with me..but yet I was taught be good to others and they’ll be good to you.
People love to keep me a secret, it there really something wrong with me..? Am I coming on too strong? Would your friends make fun of you?
But don’t worry about it C, I can’t force my way of thinking onto you nor anybody. I can only hope to maintain my positive outlook on things and not hinder your journey any longer.
You ever wonder why things don’t go right for you, even when you do good for others? Like you just can’t seem to catch a break.
I cannot catch a single break, the moment I think things will turn out different someone reminds me that I truly do not matter to them.
I realize now that you’re temporary to everyone, there is no such thing as forever or always in any type of human relationship.
I’ll have to create my own happiness.